Facism, not in the eyes of the beholder.

So, as you probably don't know, nor care, there has been a lot going on around my life lately. There have been some serious contemplations about things: life, school, religion, faith, God, people, celebrities, etc. However, to go into details about each and everything I have been pondering would take far too long, as well as become rather boring to read--not that anybody reads this stuff anyway... Nonetheless, there are some pressing issues, that I would like to talk about, just so that I can say I did it.

First off, since when are celebrities not real people? I mean, it's been going on for years, but as I was watching MTV (first mistake), they were talking about the Chris Brown incident, as if he is incapable of being angry and lashing out. Granted, celebrities are more likely to have problems than us, "normies," but we put them on such a pedestal that when they do mess up, it's the end of the world. So, he may have hit her, they had a fight, he was angry, so what? People do it all the time, people are physically, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally abused all of the time. I fear that being in the public eye is what causes a lot of the issues, but alas that fact should be used to exploit the human nature in all of us. People get angry, it happens, deal with it; There is no need, in my opinion, to blow things up so much as to have it in every tabloid. It could be argued that every time a celebrity takes a dump it's headline news: "This just in, Lil Wayne took a dump, and wipped his own ass." WHO CARES, right? Nobody cares that Lil Wayne took a shit, so why would it matter if anybody partakes in any other action that is deemable normal? He hasn't even been convicted of anything, as far as I know, so chances are it was merely an argument and it appeared as if he hit her... I don't know, and honestly I don't care. They're humans, and we are bound to fail at everything we do. Deal with it!

That's why I don't watch a lot of tv anymore, it's all garbage, and we elevate people to such high standings that it disallows for ambition and dreams to sore as they once did. I was told, as a small child, to shoot beyond the stars, dream big, don't stop until you've reached your goals, but why should we? I don't want to end up like all of the doped up celebrities who can't deal with everybody life. I don't want to alienate my kids because I don't know how to be a legit human being. The notion that you can do anything you set your mind to, Manifest Destinay (in some repsects), is bullshit. You can work as hard as you want, but where is it going to get you? Granted, there is nothing wrong being a swing manager for a fast food chain, but what did they really want to do? There comes a time when one must settle for something less than their dreams. Am I ready to settle for something less, not yet, but it's coming. I have ambitions that will probably be never met, so what, right? To be honest, I have talked a big game, but deep down I want to be something, I want to be known for something (preferably good), but will it happen? I don't know. Although, I do know that I don't want to be "famous" as in the modern definition of the term. Paparazi can kiss my ass, because they serve no purpose in this world, they would be, to me, like the untouchables of the hindu castes.

Oh well, this has went in a direction different than originally intended, so whatever. If you read enjoy, if you don't read kiss off!

-Andy J. Graves