Idiocracy meets Theocracy!

I don't really have anything profound to write about this week. I've been focusing a lot of my energy towards writing a couple poems for the upcoming poetry night at a local coffee shop; Plus, I have been trying to train my focus on things other than God and Church and Spiritual Practices. It has become a very overwhelming part of my experience that I don't appreciate at the current juncture in life!

You see, a lot of the books I read, the conversations I have, the thoughts that persist in my head have to do deal with the corrupt nature of the beast that is faith, and it's depressing. The system that I have bought into for so long is slowly but surely driving me crazy with depressing thoughts.

It isn't just one aspect, but the entire world of faith:

The war.
The bickering.
The hate.
The grace.
The deities.
The money.
The lack of love.

These things and more are ever present in our churches, in our lives, and in our faiths. We are created in the image of God, and yet we act like we can control the image OF God. We slam God into a box and control the message that was being sent out into the universe. It's stupid and I want to walk away.

I want to throw my hands up and quit! Walk away from the faith once and for all. I'm just tired of all of it, why can't there be a great reconciliation and people just go back to not being an asshole towards everybody that's different? Yes, it's nearly impossible to undo a millennium of asshole, but if we never take a step towards that goal we're surely NEVER going to make it!

I keep fighting, but for what? Nobody listens to me, and I'm nobody in the grand scheme of the western world... but here I am! I stand on the outskirts of the religious battles waiting for my courage to peak so I can start my great melee. I think, I'm always waiting for the reinforcements to arrive as well.... There's a war being waged, and I'm not sure I really care!

Again, nothing profound here, but thoughts nonetheless about what's happening in the church world today! Go with God and know that you are supposed to be loved by your neighbor!

-Andy J. Graves